Diary I went to bed so late last night. But, I woke up super energetic this morning like usual. However, I think taking all four of those capsules together last night caused me to wake up with some pretty strong … Continue reading
Diary I woke up bright and early this morning, despite having the day off from work. I woke up energetic and ready to go! However, because I’m home for the majority of the day, I got distracted by all the … Continue reading
I have considered myself to be a little technologically disadvantaged lately. My husband’s computer is not working, and my computer stopped working. I could move the mouse, but even though the mousepad sounded like it was clicking, the computer would not technologically let it click on anything. How frustrating!! Thankfully, because the school purchased our computers with AppleCare, it was able to go into the shop and be fixed. However, this does take time… and so I was over a week without my computer.
Sorry peeps, there was a good reason I wasn’t writing.
You know, I’m the type of person that actually enjoys unplugging from the world for awhile. I like being without technology from time to time. My high dependence on technology for work is what usually gets me, plus the fact I manage our household bills/budgets online as well as communication to my family who live far away.
And as much as I like to unplug, just because my computer quit working didn’t mean my job stopped. I still had to teach on a stand-in computer. And when you have a computer that you cannot save anything on, that doesn’t have all the files you need, that isn’t the same as yours, it just makes things a little more difficult. Plus, I couldn’t take it home. It was only for use at work.
So let me tell you, I’m happy I have my computer back. I have everything I need back. I have all of my familiarity back.. though it did take a few minutes for it to sink in that my computer was my computer. It feels a little like “home”.
So I’m back, and I’ll be writing again! Thanks for sticking around!
So the weirdest thing happened to me this week, and it can only be explained that God was providing me with what i needed before I knew it, and it happened in the strangest way. Here’s what it was:
As far as the dynamics of the school, grades 5-8 are all downstairs. Because we are all together, we share in our options classes. Junior High had an outdoor adventure this week, and so it was simply grade 5 and my grade 6s in our area.
Options happen every Tuesday and Thursday and prior to this year, we have ALWAYS cancelled Options during the week that Junior High was gone. And that’s why this year was so strange.
The grade 5 teacher came to me on Monday saying that he knew I needed a break and was considering teaching a his Choir class so that he would have both grades 5 and 6 and I would have a spare. Normally this would not be a spare for me anyways because I teach the Junior High French at the same time. And as much as he seemed to stress that I needed a break, I could not figure out why!
Tuesday came, and he told me he had decided to teach Choir that day and went out of his way to tell me that he would keep them as long as he could so I could have a break and was just making sure that everything was ok and convenient for me. I was in total disarray trying to figure out what I did to require such a break!
I knew Choir class was almost an hour, and decided to use my time wisely: hence the government call that I have blogged about earlier.
The best part is, not only was Choir scheduled for just shy of an hour, but he kept the kids overtime!
Now picture this: just gone through the worst, most frustrating call I’ve ever had with the government over such a huge issue in my life, got treated incredibly rudely on the phone, was left so emotional afterwards, and yet had the spare time to regroup myself. eat some food and manage to level out before my students returned. Now tell me that isn’t God’s timing!
You see, I didn’t plan on that call. I definitely didn’t plan on that spare! Yet for some reason, somehow, God impressed upon my co-worker that I needed that particular time that particular day with the right amount of time to deal with something I needed to deal with. I had no idea. I had no idea why things were going the way they were, and yet it all made sense in the end. God had this planned and provided me with what I needed to do it.
I cannot sing God’s praises enough. The very fact that He sees everything – the beginning and the end – and knows everything in between just humbles me. My God has it all under control before I even realize it. My God provides everything I will need when the time comes. My God is more powerful than I could ever imagine. My God is truly the God of Love.
Patience. Often something we lack. I’m not talking about the kind of patience where you take deep breaths when you’re struggling with something or waiting for someone who is running late. I’m talking patience when you’re waiting for an answer to something and it never seems to come. That’s the patience I’m talking about.
This whole immigration thing with my husband frustrates me to no end. Now they’ve lost his FBI record that took us almost 3 months to get. I know they had it because I sent it in the same envelope as the Work Permit application. He got his work permit, meaning they got the FBI record. Yet they don’t have any record of it? I have a funny feeling I’m going to be waiting more than another 3 months…
But this whole situation really got me thinking. What if for right now, the work permit is enough? What about those nasty snow storms we had last winter, and yet we had a vehicle that sporadically ran. But wasn’t that enough to get us through all the days we desperately needed a car? It was a pain to have my basement flood and the endless disgust that came with the duties of pumping it all out, but wasn’t it contained just enough to not destroy many expensive things? I hate my washer and dryer. In fact, I wouldn’t be surprised if the washer blows up one day. But isn’t it just enough that I have a washer and dryer that I didn’t have to pay for and that get the job done for now? My husband may not have his residency yet which does put some of our plans and decisions on hold. But isn’t it just enough that he does get to be here with me and can legally work? And maybe the time they told him to leave the country and then said he shouldn’t have left the country, and then got stopped at the border for two hours almost to not be let in the country, wasn’t that enough that they at least let him through the border with a visitor visa?
Funny enough, as coincidental as this is, I’m currently sitting in the car, my husband has just come out from looking at other vehicle options, and our car won’t start. And I’m not quite frankly sure how this is going to end. But the one thing I do know is that it is just enough that I have options.
It is just enough that we can ask someone to boost us and hopefully that will work. It is just enough that if necessary, I pay yearly for AMA coverage which includes a few tows if I need them. It is just enough that I even have a car that has gotten me around this long. It is just enough that although we couldn’t do it for long, we do have the money to pay for a taxi to go home. And it is just enough to know that we were already planning on another vehicle – although we were hoping for it to be a second vehicle – so that if need be, we can get another vehicle fast.
Praise God that He knows what we need and gives us JUST ENOUGH ❤
I’m not going to stay long because I do need to be with my husband at this frustrating moment. But I write to you so that you know, even if things don’t quite turn out the way you want or the way you expect, God will provide you with just enough to get through whatever it is, and just enough to keep you going.
Sometimes everything we think we need is so far from what we actually need, and that’s where trusting in God and being patient upon His answers can be so hard. But I challenge you today. Look at the things He’s given you that are just enough, and go from there.
As I sit here and reflect on life, I’ve come to realize that no matter what you think, no matter how hard you try to predict what may happen in the future, the truth is that you honestly never know.
You can have your whole life planned out and one small thing can change the course of your future. It’s almost unsettling; asking yourself what you should do, what you should plan, what goals you should work towards, what really is going to be worth it in the end. Yet we have no greater capabilities than to lift these questions to God in prayer and make the best decision that we can think through at that given time, whether it may have been the right decision or not. Only time will tell.
It has become mostly apparent to me that life cannot be lived a year at a time, or a month at a time, or a week at a time. Sure, you can make plans for a vacation, or towards other small things in life, but you can only truly get the most out of life when you’re doing the best you can with the day you’ve been given.
We aren’t promised 20 more years, we aren’t even promised tomorrow. We aren’t even promised another 5 minutes, but what we have right now – that breath you just took – was a gift; a gift of time. We are only human and not every moment will be spent as perfectly as possible, but we can strive to change the course of our future, the course of our actions, and the course of our thoughts. We can strive for the best moments, for moments of bliss, moments of happiness, moments frozen in time full of laughter and joy. Only then will thoughts of the future seem less frightening; less frustrating. Only when we make the best of each moment we have will we truly appreciate the life we’ve been given and live to become that greater person that we were meant to be.
So take a moment and don’t think of what you can do at another time to change your future, but rather what you can begin doing right now, with this very gift of life. Think of what you can do and do your best.
Life is not always meant to be easy nor is it always certain. Sometimes decisions in life hang in the grey area we wish didn’t exist. But only take a moment to think, lift the situation up in prayer, grab the Father’s hand, and jump two feet in. You’ll be rest assured that one way or another, you are doing the best you can do for the moment of time you’ve been given. You’ll continue to do the best you can with each gift of a moment you receive from now until the glorious moment when all fog shall be removed from our eyes and life will suddenly appear crystal clear; the moment life will no longer be uncertain but rather become a time of endless celebration and a time of timeless rejoicing.
Calm in Christ and Fitness 